Scenery in my mind 2011~

写真は自分の人生の記録である

風景

Artist Statement

「写真は自分の人生の記録である。」尊敬する写真家の言葉だ。

4年前、家業を継ぐことになった。しかし、その重責とそこで働く人たちの生活を守るという重圧から、経営方針を巡ってたびたび親と衝突した。その結果、親と別離することになり、結婚したばかりであったが、やむなく独立した。
激減した収入による生活苦、その中での子どもの誕生、育児。怒りから虚無感を経て、一時は気持ちが絶望の淵に沈んだ。だが、妻の献身的な支えや我が子の無垢な笑顔などに救われ、希望を見出し、少しづつ未来に向けて歩き出すことができた。

10年、20年分も凝縮されたような感情の起伏を経験しながらも、感情のままに写真を撮り続けた。写真を撮ることで自分の心を落ち着かせ、心の安定を取り戻そうとしていたのかもしれない。写真を撮る行為は、人の強さ、弱さ、移ろいやすさを記録する行為でもある。

“A photograph is a record of one’s life. These are the words of a photographer I respect.

Four years ago, I decided to take over the family business. Four years ago, he took over his family’s business, but the responsibility and the pressure of protecting the livelihood of the people who worked there led to frequent clashes with his parents over management policies. As a result, he had to separate from his parents, and although he had just gotten married, he had no choice but to go independent.
As a result, she had to leave her parents. From anger to a sense of emptiness, he temporarily sank into the depths of despair. However, with the support of my wife’s devotion and the innocent smile of my child, I found hope and was able to start walking toward the future little by little.

While experiencing the ups and downs of emotions that seemed to have been condensed over 10 or 20 years, I continued to take pictures with my emotions. Perhaps I was trying to calm myself down and regain my mental stability by taking photographs. The act of taking photographs is also an act of recording the strength, weakness, and changeability of people.

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だが、時間を経てこれらの写真を見ると、撮影時の感情が薄らいで見えた。別の思いにかられ、当時の自分を遠くから俯瞰してみた。写真は自分の人生の記録であるが、時を経て見たときには別の記憶にもなり得る。

“カメラだけで写真を撮るわけではない。それまでに見たすべての写真、読んだすべての本、聴いたすべての音楽、愛したすべての人によって、写真撮影という行為に命が吹き込まれる―。”

Ansel Adams

写真の偉人アンセル・アダムスの言葉だ。

私の心の中の風景がほかの人にはどう映るのだろうか。絶望や希望といった感情の移ろいの中撮影した風景が、見る人によってどんな人生の記録に映るのか。悲しみ、虚無感、怒り、喜び、希望。自分が感じたすべての感情がこの心象風景となって、いまの自分を形作っている。

However, when I looked at these photos over time, the emotions I felt when I took them seemed to have faded. I was struck by another thought, and took a bird’s eye view of myself from afar at the time. A photograph is a record of one’s life, but it can also be another memory when viewed over time.

“You don’t take a picture with just a camera. The act of photography is brought to life by all the pictures I have seen, all the books I have read, all the music I have listened to, all the people I have loved -“
These are the words of Ansel Adams, the great man of photography.

How does the landscape in my mind appear to other people? What kind of record of life will the viewers see in the landscape I photographed in the midst of shifting emotions of despair and hope? Sadness, emptiness, anger, joy, hope. All the emotions that I have felt have become this mental landscape that forms the person that I am today.

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Created 2015. Scenery in my mind 2011~


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